Hey, Dear Reader, it’s been a while since I spoke on anything like this. I’m in a very stable place in my journey, there hasn’t been any huge changes, well, recently, er, maybe about four or five months actually, I decided to omit corn from my diet, I didn’t use it in anything other than pasta, cereal and baking powder and the baking powder never caused issues, really the corn would often be fine, but other times I think it was affecting me days later. Then again other times it would make my histamine symptoms worse, not that it caused them, but those two together could get very nasty. Histamine seems to affect me with the changing of the weather too, but keep on top of it has helped and without the corn it’s very manageable. Really it made me think of the years I spent trying to figure all this out, I suppose in a way I’ve applied the same methods to the garden: A slow and gradual testing system, with elimination and replacement. Which is absurdly difficult and has taken so much willpower, but it has been worthwhile. What this has reminded me of is of of the biggest struggles I faced early on, so let’s talk a little about that.
When I started I had no idea what foods, what food groups and even what illnesses and intolerances I had, I had no one to seek help from and was entirely alone, you know this story so I’m not going to repeat it. One issue I faced was that everything made me feel ill, trying to deduce whether it was the food, a delayed reaction, which is the worst or if it was just my health that had deteriorated greatly over the years. I suppose there are two very important points to take from what I’ve learned: The first is that you need to be methodical, you need extensive amounts of patience, you can’t cut out willy nilly because you’l ditch too much and eventually revert. For everything removed ad two was my motto and one I stick to. It took me three or four year to just map out the main bulk of my intolerances, the nuances have taken a full decade. There’s also another point: When you’re at a relatively okay point you can be tempted to stick, I was like this with corn, a good 60% of the time it was fine, I had no major issues with the cereal and ate it daily, the pasta weekly, in tortilla chips as a treat, but I think, sometimes even three days later, it was adding up and causing trouble, with food issues they can compound and cause greater trouble and the wait to heal again can be interrupted when you’re still eating the same problem food.
It took some willpower to break away from corn, I’ve lost so many of my staple, or so they seemed at the time, foods, but I’m better for it. I’ve replaced the sugary cereal, not sweet, but still surprisingly high in sugar, with puffed quinoa and chia seeds, the pasta is now all buckwheat. I feel better, whether this has contributed to a slight dip in my weight is hard to say because I’ve been so active in the garden. See, you can’t take anything as if it exists in vacuum, everything affects something else, but you can be careful of giving yourself an out, I did with the corn, it seemed impossible, it was extremely difficult, to find a replacement for the cereal which was a vital part of my diet. It’s not been an easy task, my relationship with food has been in a flux all this time, in someways I just don’t care about food and that has never been a part of my thinking regarding food so it can be jarring. I’ll never lose the “Fat” part of my brain, it will always be there, inert, but still a potential switch. It would take drastic steps to go back, but I’m aware it’s still possible and I’m always vigilant. I can love food and hate all the work my diet requires, I can love the garden’s produce and still want processed junk, I can still eat and find no pleasure in trash, but still want more and I can still shovel healthy food in without a thought and feel it as alien to me. Weight-loss has been hugely complex and involved, Dear Reader, I sincerely hope that when the surgeries are finished I’ll be given a re-balance into a happier state. All I can do is share what I can and hope no one has to face what I have and continue to. That’s all for today, Dear Reader, I’ll be back soon, take care.