It’s too wet for photos, Dear Reader, not too wet to be outside, never. So instead today we’ll delve back into breaking down what worked to establish the healthy routine I live by. The loops I jump through to avoid using the misused word: Diet. I would like to say first that I hope I never come across as overbearing or not understanding, I, well, when I started this I did it without excuses, without telling anyone, without a clue if I’d even find any worth in it. I, how do I say it? I had so little choice and apparently a lot of willpower so when I see people making excuses, refusing to take what I say as true I just don’t understand. I never thought of myself as special, I figured if I could do this anyone could, I just wanted out of a dark place and I was willing to go through anything to make it. It’s why I don’t really relate to anyone doing this for weight or just generally better health. Maybe it’s why they don’t relate to me, I have no idea, but what I’m saying is I hope I never dissuade anyone from starting, I never want to make you feel like a failure for not doing what I did. It’s why I’m here typing another post that without the fluke of being found will fade away in obscurity regardless of the effort and thought I’ve put into it. I just don’t want anyone to be in the situation I was without someone to help them. I wanted that someone and never found them. So if you ever think Jack an arrogant ass just remember he’s just someone trying to do his best, never really knowing the value of the work he has done, I’m an idiot, Dear Reader, we all are, I’m just trying to learn to be better and share what I’ve learned to get others here faster, I just can’t coddle everyone, I can only teach from what I’ve experienced and that might make me abrasive at times, if I ever hurt anyone then I’m sorry, but all I’ll ever ask is what I gave myself. Now that might not be for you, but I can’t be anyone else but me.
I’m sure you’ve heard of the elimination diet? I hadn’t, but I started a similar diet all those years ago, coming up to the ninth, I removed the problematic foods that I had had trouble with for years, but what I discovered was that I needed to replace them, dieting reduces intake of good nutrients too of course, thus the idea that for every food eliminated two more should be added. That might seem simple, but I tell you when you’ve stripped away all you’ve ever know and are now faced with the task of eating and learning what to do it is daunting and challenging, not impossible, but it does feel that way. As I’ve said there wasn’t a blog that would suit my needs, no guru to follow, just me, guessing, recording testing and trying. I threw up a lot is what I’m saying.
It’s why if you say to me that you can’t do without this or that I just can’t care, harsh, but I gave up literally everything I ate and reworked my whole diet, I had a choice too, but sometimes people act as if I was impelled by a magical force, I wasn’t, I was suicidal and sick, very very sick, so I had to push foods away, I had to learn to hate what I loved and learn to love what I hated. One of the problems with this is that you’ll eat foods you’ll be unable to tolerate, you’ll find new foods and need to learn how to use them, you’ll try so much and discard so much it seems like a waste, but it isn’t, it’s probably an accidental catalyst to my success, to the vast amount of recipes here.
How? Well if all I can eat is sweet potato and I hate it I’ll go to the ends of the internet to find a recipe that makes it palatable, I’ll discover alternative preparations, different spice blends to mask taste, new foods to use in addition to this, in essence I’ll learn more about food than I ever ever would have by just eating what I always did. With a lot of food as the palate changes and acclimatizes to new tastes you’ll find your new diet forming without much resistance. It’s strange to imagine that you gain from losing, but it’s true, by excluding I was pushed to look further to accept more and to really appreciate what I had. It’s not to say that I didn’t kick and yell, but I always pushed forward, the feeling of being better starts as euphoric, fades fast and leaves you angry and hurt but something else starts to grow, very slowly sure, but the enjoyment of a new variety starts to take hold of you. An appreciation for seemingly simple food, much like a flower you do need to tend this, the weeds of old habits and tastes will threaten to strangle this before it blooms, but if you keep at it you arrive at a stage where you have an entirely new view of food that will keep your lifestyle in place. It’s no longer a flower, but a pillar, holding up the foundation of your new life. It starts by not giving up, not resenting, but knowing the necessity and never stopping.
I’ll be on onion watch soon, the Roscoff are getting yellow at the tip so when we see some fine weather and they’ve wilted I’ll pull them, let them air dry and then start curing them. The Yellow Onions will take longer. I’ve planted beetroot where the shallots were, the beetroot in the shops is so hard as to be inedible, as are the carrots, which might be planted where the onions are. I have the flyaway and the purple sun still growing, but they will take time. Just think: I have only been eating carrots a few years. Until later, Dear Reader.